maybe its because i didnt sleep last night
maybe its the holes in my brain, the caffiene or the adderall, or cause i'm leaving in 3 weeks, or cause i'm madly in love
i dont know exactly why, but life is just so.... surreal... right now i guess is the word. i just can't really put my finger on it.
am i excited? am i depressed? am i nervous? scared? anxious?
maybe i am just now realizing that this is my life that i'm living, and not some game where i'm safe and sheltered and can always return to my room in my parents house after a bad night.. or a good night.